Well another night of no sleep, so much on my mind, I can’t seem to figure out a way to process everything or stop the thoughts I'm having. So many choices, decisions, things to handle. How do you balance everything in your life, from marriage, to friends, to family, to your job? I struggle daily keeping an equal balance, and find that I’m neglecting a lot of things, including my own personal happiness. I’m stuck on this ride, and it just keeps going up, and then further down, then gradually starts back up, and then BAM, back down. I’m trying to make sense of everything going on right now, and trying to understand,, but I’m just drawing a blank. How does one process so many things at once? I’m searching for an inner happiness, so it will exude and show through me. But right now, I feel that a dark cloud has set in, and I’m in a place of misery and depression. I turn all of this over to God’s hands and know that he has a plan for me, for my well being. I pray that he can grant me the strength to get through these things and learn and grow, whether it ends in pain, heartache, or even happiness. I trust in my God, and know that he will never give me more than I can handle, but right now, I feel trapped in a box, with nothing but myself and my negative thoughts. Thank goodness for my blog and writing. Helps me better understand exactly what is going on in my head and most importantly my heart. Today’s motto, Just try to be happy. Unhappiness starts with wanting to be happier. I’m too positive, too upbeat to be so down, so I’m asking for guidance and answers to all the unknown questions in my mind. I just hope my heart steers me in the right direction and I can get back to be happy with those I love most. I tend to shut down, cut people off, and try and hide my unhappiness, but at the end of the day, that’s the worst to do. While dealing with so much, I’m trying to find ways help me get back on track.
Helpful tips, I’m going to try out:
1.) Confide in a Friend who understands and won’t judge you regardless of your situation
2.) Pray a lot, and then Pray some more
3.) Ask for guidance and strength, we sale ourselves short, we are stronger than we know
4.) Eliminate all negativity and focus on the positive
5.) Trust in those who love you and know you and take their advice.
6.) Try and remember regardless of how much heartache or pain you are experiencing, it could be worse.
7.) LISTEN
I wish happiness for all, I don’t understand why it gets so complicated and impossible to achieve or even keep but I have my eye on the prize and refuse to be brought down to tears anymore. I know what’s best for me, and know I must find a way to get back on track, get control over my life and my feelings, and be happy again. Sleepless nights, a hurting heart, and tears cried is not what I’m aiming for. I have too much.
Love to all, please share your thoughts on how you deal with difficult situations whether they are relationship/marriage related, or at your job, or with your family or in laws. I know everyone handles things differently and right now, I’m stuck but determined to be HAPPY, even if it takes heartache to get there.
Blessings!
One Love,
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